Mask off

I think of you every night and day - I hate myself for loving you 



10 years ago, you’d find almost every Muslim woman with the Hijab, but now, most women make excuses for not wearing the Hijab.

Too deep to swollen ....

Couple days ago ...

 As she sits in a chair , checking on her hand phone, herself  is frantically looking by  bunch of guys with ''evil eyes '' .She isn't feeling very comfortable with the looks .   But she tried to feeling cool in front of the guys .  The guys went near to her and approached her with awfully ignorant sound 

''psss (bunyi tikus ) nak tackle boleh ? ''

'auuuummmm ''

''nak kenal boleh ....''



She asks herself, “why do they want to approached me ?” and the answer slaps her in the face when she saw there's a veiled girl walking in front of her .

The veiled girl wasn't a modern material girl , but she was still the looking great with her grey  abaya and Black hijab . 

While she is wearing pink hotpants with plain T-shirt bought at Pavillion . 

Couple days later , she's been emotionally unstable . 

It might be that she feels like she's doing something wrong but she refuse to admit it or it’s just the ego trip that she gets when she receives compliment from her friends''The click five''



She's fully aware that since the accident she's been thinking of the veiled girl .She can't denied the veiled girl are so modest and everyone who walks besides her glare at her with a ''respect '' look .

''Am I bad ? Am I reflected my religion ? Am I reflected my parents ?'' She asked herself . 

She took a note , hand written  by her mom .

''There are an excess of opportunities to change and make it  better .''

So the next day , she went to the mall again .as modest and plain as a human being can be . 

Black shawls and pink dress .

She sits in the same chair . Exact time . Exact place . Exact people .

Fortunately , the guys didn't recognize her . They gave a ''respectful'' smile to her . 



Other people are  good to her since that day .